NEGATIVE – Such A Beautiful Word

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I am home, resting.

Another bullet dodged.

I have never been so scared in my life.

 Panic really set in last night and why wouldn’t it have?

After being told over and over how sick I was and then being told I most likely had another infection after what appears to now be false positive results…

I barely slept.  My heart would not stop racing and my back ached.

I listened to my body once again and went to the Emergency Room.

Although some levels are still elevated, results indicating signs of infection were:

NEGATIVE

NEGATIVE

N.E.G.A.T.I.V.E

Such a beautiful word.

I need to continue to monitor my body carefully and look for signs of abnormalities, as I am not completely out of the woods yet.

What a ride this has been.

I am sorry if I scared you all but I needed to express my feelings last night.  You have always been there for me and you were there for me again last night.  I felt your presence,  your love and your kindness.

Let’s hope and pray that, NEGATIVE  is a word I continue to hear throughout the weeks and months ahead.

Such a beautiful word.

41 thoughts on “NEGATIVE – Such A Beautiful Word

  1. I just saw this on my reader, and ironically, I came on to find you and see how you were doing. I am SO HAPPY to hear NEGATIVE!!! I know, I know, I’m forever saying no negativity, but there’s an exception to every rule. This happens to be it. Glad to hear you’re on the road to recovery!! Don’t be a stranger! Post more so we all know you’re ok, will ya?! ❤

    ~Kate

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  2. Praying, hoping, here…thank God…and let’s keep those negatives coming (not what I would normally say but you couldn’t have a more perfect blog title in this case!). God bless you dear Maria as you rest and recover…we all need you back in full form 🙂 xoxoxo

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    1. Gracias, Julie! I’d like to have a “do-over” of this summer, please. I am so ready to put all of this behind me! What a roller coaster of emotions and physical state. Thank you for your kind thoughts. 🙂

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    1. I believe I am done playing this game. I don’t want to play anymore! Instead, I want to happily play with my life, my kids and my family! PA-LEASE! The Latina in me is coming out with a vengeance and a fight!

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  3. Thanks for posting and update. I was VERY worried about you!! You’ve been on my mind this weekend. So glad that all is well. Negative…a strange word. When you are talking about people it is not a good word to describe them. However, in the medical world, it is a beautiful word.

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    1. Right you are! I never imagined I would come to love the word, Negative. It sounded SO sweet when I heard it yesterday. It oozed gently out of the doctor’s lips and brought me such joy. 🙂 Thank you for your very kind thoughts and words. 🙂

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    1. I am dreaming of a gentle body massage with soothing music in the background, followed by a gentle mani/pedi and a tall glass of super cold and fruity Sangria. And perhaps a very nice young woman reading me her beautiful poetry in her most calming voice. 🙂

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    1. I laid in bed that night and I could not shut off my mind. I grabbed my computer and started writing exactly how I was feeling at that moment. It was scary. I am looking forward to moving forward and taking a hopefully long break from hospitals. Enjoy your day, Jackie! 🙂

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    1. I am determined to have a good day today, Jill. The sun is shining and I am blessed. I might even sneak out to the mall to get a pedicure. Something so simple that will make me feel better. I hope you have enjoyed your weekend and I thank you immensely for your thoughts and your prayers. xoxo

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