“When you truly love yourself, you are enough. Your happiness and well-being become a top priority”
― Annette Vaillancourt
I am feeling somewhat better after my little break-down this week. When I think about this coming Fall and how alone I will be, I go back to that sad and dark place occupying a corner of my heart. Fortunately, I am beginning to see the possibilities for me and what opportunities await me in the months and years to come.
I also thank you wonderful people, for your unbelievably kind words of encouragement. You truly are the best and I wish I could climb right into this screen and hug you all…and kiss some of you, too.
In working through this realization that I will be spending an abundant amount of time with just me, I decided that I better get to know me. What if I don’t like me? What if me and I just don’t jive? If I am going to be tied to my own arthritic hip 24/7, isn’t it important that I find out as much about me as possible? Especially, to ensure that me is not a criminal, an identity thief or God forbid, a bitch! Imagine that!
So I decided to follow me, for a full day. Like an eager student who shadows a person in their workplace to decide if the type of work she is observing, is something she wants to pursue.
I had to ask me for permission and thankfully, me agreed.
After watching me get up, make the bed, go to the bathroom and get dressed, I have to admit, I was a bit bored (yawn). Me’s knee was swollen and she was limping around the house (what a wuss!)
I watched me eat some cereal and sit on the comfy couch with my laptop, ready to search for the opportunities and activities waiting to be chosen by me, to help fill the endless hours my empty nest will bring (ay, that was a mouthful.)
First Internet Search: A Jewelry Making Class. Me enjoys making bracelets out of beautiful beads but needs the skills necessary for securing clasps and hooks. What? A Class this coming Sunday? Why, yes! Me and I are both available to attend (maybe we will get a twofer on the cost.)
Second Internet Search: Meditation. Me has always wanted to learn how to meditate and appreciate the true meaning of mindfulness. What? Free classes at the University? Yes, please!
Then, me took a short break to look at showtimes for a movie I have been dying to see;
Words and Pictures
What? 2:20 today? Ticket for One, please!
I could have called my friend Gina who wanted to go with me but I decided that I needed to go, with just me. Like a date. With me. Would me share popcorn with me? Would me like yeast or cheese on her already buttered popcorn? Would me try any funny business in the theater? I had to know.
After accepting the fact that my fellow movie goers were no younger than 97, I settled in my seat, with me.
YOU ALL MUST SEE THIS WONDERFUL MOVIE!!
Starring Clive Owen & Juliette Binochi, in an inspirational romantic comedy. Clive Owen plays, Jack Marcus a prep school English teacher who tries to educate his students about the power of the written word (as writers, you are going to really appreciate his character and his take on the English language.)
Juliette Binochi, an artist in real life, plays the character of Dina Delsanto, an artist who is battling Rheumatoid Arthritis. Her illness limits her painting abilities and she is forced to teach Art at the same prep school. A friendly war ensues about the importance of Words vs. Pictures, as the two teachers try to prove to their students that their mode of expression, is superior to the other.
No, it is not a chick flick. It is an everyone flick. It deals with addiction, bullying, family relationships and passion for one’s career.
What an inspirational film.
Me and I both loved it.
We discussed it on the way home. I then told me that I was happy she let me shadow her today. I told me that I kind of liked her. That she is fun, beautiful and a fighter.
I reminded me that there is nothing we cannot handle, together.
I told me that I was happy to be me and that I even… loved her.
‘Cause All of Me is Learning to Love, All of Me