The More I Did It, The More I Liked It

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One year ago today, I locked myself in my bedroom with a glass of wine in tow and began engaging in something that felt… kind of naughty.  I didn’t tell a soul I was going to try it.  After weeks spent contemplating and reflecting on my life , I had decided that I would give it a go.  I was immensely fearful.  

My lack of experience was clear but I continued, nevertheless.  I was clumsy.  I was confused.  I searched deep within my soul and…did it.  It didn’t feel great, just good.  Liberating.  Secretive.  Dirty.

The next day I went at it again.  This time, in the living room.  No one was home, of course.  Just me and this new world I had discovered.  My fingers did most of the work.  Exploring, probing and feeling their way through the unknown.  They were sore after the first hour but I kept on going in spite of the pain.  No pain, no gain, I reminded myself.

Sure enough, after a while it felt really good.  My shyness had withered away and I became  bolder in my explorations.  I was hooked.  The more I did it, the more I liked it.  I couldn’t stop.  I averaged 3 hours per day, sometimes 4.  Instant gratification was my daily goal and I achieved it… and some.  

It was then that I decided I had to confess to my husband about this secret life I was fully engaged in.  I explained it the best I could and even asked him to join me in the fun, but he declined.  He didn’t understand why I needed this so badly.  Was he not enough for me?  He came around after watching me do it a couple of times and began encouraging me to keep going.  Let it all out, he would say.  Don’t hold back.  Lose yourself in the moment and release your inhibitions, baby.

Thus, here I am,  

celebrating my one year Blogaversary!!!

Thank you for reading and caring.

Now, let’s dance!

48 thoughts on “The More I Did It, The More I Liked It

    1. I could have inserted just about anything there, since I have an addictive personality! 🙂 It’s been a fun year revealing my deep and dark secrets for those who want to read and most importantly, blogging has kept me from jumping off a bridge during this horrendous winter! 🙂

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  1. Hahaha! Clever, indeed. I just saw something on TV about this…a couple having an argument over the fact that blogging had taken over her / their lives, and her reminding him it was his idea, and he wondering what the hell was wrong with him for suggesting it in the first place. Funny, funny, stuff, this blogging business…But worth it, all the same. 🙂

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    1. Ha! I wonder how many households/couples are having this discussion as we speak. My kids don’t understand it and just stare at me at times. The common question is, ‘Do you get paid for doing this?’ Ha,ha! 🙂

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  2. Thus, here I am,

    celebrating my one year Blogaversary!!!

    Cimmy and I came to WordPress three years ago when VOX shut down. We started eight and ten years ago, respectively. What is it that has bloggers catchin’ fire and blowin’ up lately? We’ve been slogging for a while!

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      1. Why thank you! I don’t feel like an expert much of the time… blogging changed SO much compared to when we started. People wrote much more in a “Dear Diary” style and LiveJournal (where we started) was much less feature-rich. Even compared to where LiveJournal is now.

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    1. I began completely anonymous but soon revealed my first name and then pictures of me. I still like to think I’m somewhat hidden. It is kind of fun to say whatever you want and not worry. I like the little tid bits you reveal about yourself, like roses and tulips being your favorite flowers and wanting your nickname to be Sweet Peace. 🙂

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  3. Congrats on swimming to your 50s and then some. I loved this little story. I knew what you were talking about right away, and kept reading just to see how far you’d go with it. Chistosita. 🙂 Salud amiga! Looking forward to the next year.

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    1. It really was like a dirty little secret, for a while. But, that’s as dirty as it gets around here. It’s been fun getting to know you and your chocolate. Which by the way, I’ve got a bone to pick with you. Thanks to than insane picture of the cake you made, I went out to get all the ingredients and guess what I’m making tomorrow!! AY! La dieta! 🙂

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    1. Thank you, Toby! It’s been great company as I sit at home often on my bed not feeling my best. It’s fun to stay connected and to have a voice. Thank you for all your kind words. You are a culo tonto muy bueno!

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